The Christian Model - Part Two

Hi Everyone!

It’s been a long time since I did a Reel with Rebecca Lea…I’ve had a writer’s block to be honest.

But I think I have found a new subject to discuss. I’ve addressed subjects like how to deal with not being casted in projects……But, what about self-criticism?

Self-Criticism or “Over thinking” can be just as detrimental (Several people who know me, know that I have a tendency to over analyze). I believe that it’s incredibly productive to be evaluating ourselves and our skills, but there’s a fine (FINE) line between being analytical and detrimental.

I’ve gone through phases in my life where I wondered, “God, how did I get to this point in my life?” “God, I’m not ready for this.” Or “God, I’m not good enough.”

First of all, that is called FEAR. It’s natural to be afraid during times of uncertainty (cough, cough, COVID). There have been plenty of times where I’ve been scared however, you can’t let fear dictate your life (Unless it involves harming yourself and others). What’s not natural is to allow those doubts and fears to affect your self-confidence or what God seems to be doing in your life.

I’ve had situations recently where I’ve watched God change what I perceived my path to be (And I mean a complete 360). And let me tell you, there are aspects that scare me to this day, but that is where faith comes in. I wanted to talk about Faith Over Fear because I’ve been there in front of a camera and behind it.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11


I reached out to people I trusted and told them about my fears. One of them responded and said, “Who are you to question whether or not you’re good enough for whatever God has planned?”

I honestly felt like I had been slapped in the face. I never meant to question Gods’ plan, but that’s exactly what I did. I became so afraid that I overthought to the point where I felt paralyzed. We are not defined by our perceived “success”, but how we deal with obstacles (both externally and internally caused).

I’ve been a solo vocalist at Lincoln Center, portrayed Shelby in an equity production of Steel Magnolias and have had numerous billboards in Times Square. I’m one of the youngest professional show producers in the pageant and fashion industry (NYFW 2.0, Miss United States, Miss Arnold Teen Fitness and more). I’ve been on covers of Magazines and a featured dancer on a National Commercial. With all these accomplishments, I still question my

self-worth from time to time (Which is all normal).

I want you to walk away from this article understanding that God made you for a reason! I redefined what FEAR means to me and I hope it will inspire you as well.

Face Everything And Run


Face Everything And Rise

129 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All